I messed up with my boyfriend my invading his privacy and he got a litter more mad than i expected. I wanted to talk to him but he did not want to. I have an anxiety problem and i started freaking out (crying, not letting him leave, etc.). I said that I was breaking up with him because he doesn't need me freaking out on him like I do... I thought that comment was ignored because he later said that he needs to think about if he still wants to be with me. His sister texted me saying ';you guys broke up?'; and I called her and she told me that my boyfriend told his mom that I broke up with him. Lovely that he thinks he's single.
Anyway... he's messed up too, but he doesn't know i know. I'm planning on talking about it with him later. But right now, the main focus is how I invaded his privacy, but I think the biggest issue is how i freaked out. So, I wrote him a letter telling him how sorry I am. Chances are he doesn't want to talk to me but I'm sick over this. His sister said she is going to help me out. Regardless, I need to find a good way to deliver this letter...
Also, I am 17, a senior in high school, he is 19, a freshman in college. When i went to talk to him about how I invaded his privacy when he got off work, he got very angry that I was there and he DID NOT want to talk to me, at all. So, I fear that if I deliver the letter personally, he will just tell me to leave him alone. We've been best friends for 3 years and have been dating for 2 years.
Here is the letter that I wrote... any suggestions on improving it would be greatly appreciated!
Corey look. I鈥檓 going to be straight up with you. I don鈥檛 see how it鈥檚 fair that I鈥檝e given you a million and one chances on so many things and you can鈥檛 give me a few on working on my trust issue and my freaking out problem. You finally got a lot of the things I鈥檝e given you so many chances on right and I think that in time, I鈥檒l be able to get things right too. I鈥檝e given you many, many chances to earn my trust back as well. I need you to work with me to solve these problems, instead of just getting so mad and wanting to break up with me鈥?relationships take a lot of work. This isn鈥檛 the point, but I have midterms coming up and I鈥檓 seriously a mess without you. I talked to my mom about my freaking out and she said that maybe we should put me on anxiety pills until I can learn how to control it myself. I鈥檝e realized that freaking out just makes everything worse and I鈥檓 dead serious, I PINKY PROMISE you that I will do everything in my power to stop it. I miss you like crazy Corey and I鈥檝e held myself back from texting you so I can give you space鈥?just like you wanted. Nikki told me that you told your Mom that I broke up with you鈥?well, when you left Friday night, I was under the impression we were still together because you said that you needed to think about this. I know I said that I was breaking up with you because you don鈥檛 need me freaking out on you like I do but I thought that comment was ignored. While you don鈥檛 need me doing that, I didn鈥檛 mean to say that I was ending things, I said it because I was really upset and I didn鈥檛 mean it. You did the same thing the other day, you said you broke up with me and then you took it back and said that you never want to break up鈥?well that鈥檚 how I feel too. If you鈥檙e able to take it back, I should be able to as well. It鈥檚 making me even sicker to think that you think you鈥檙e single when I think we鈥檙e still together and you鈥檙e just thinking about us. I think we can make us work because we鈥檝e changed so many things about ourselves and what makes it different this time? We鈥檝e come too far to give up now. Two years to end it over something that I can change about myself鈥?oh and, there have been many times where I thought you went on my MySpace and read my messages because I鈥檝e looked in my inbox and there have been messages read that I didn鈥檛 read and you鈥檙e the only one who has my password鈥?and I really didn鈥檛 care. But that鈥檚 just me and we鈥檙e two different people. But now I know that it really does bother you (which I didn鈥檛 know in the past because you never really got mad about it... and I need to respect what you want from me). I know we鈥檙e young and a lot of people probably think we鈥檙e ridiculous and retarded, but we always talk about how we鈥檙e going to spend the rest of our lives together. And honestly, I can鈥檛 picture myself growing old with anyone but you. Even our friends talk about how they think we鈥檙e going to get married one day鈥?they鈥檝e fought over who will live next to us and they鈥檝e talked about who will be in the wedding and such.
All in all, I鈥檓 truly sorry for what I did to invade your privacy and I鈥檓 even sorrier for freaking out like I do. Like I said, I pinky promise that I鈥檒l do all I can to change those parts of me鈥?and I鈥檒l work on my negativity too. Just please, give me a chance to show you what I can be and what I鈥檇 do for you鈥?like how I鈥檝e given you chances in the past. I really hoBig relationship problems with someone I really do love... please help!?
This letter may help, but I do wish you would have explained what you did to invading his privacy. this would help a lot to best explain why he is so angry and too, I am others will be able to give you a better answer for we would know what all would be involved. for I know that if two people do love each other should never keep things from each other. for trust and sharing pirate matters is a big and important part of trust between a couple that do love each other. and with out this trust there is not real love. as I am a male, and am married and we never keep anything from each other. as when we see something as being called privet, would be something that we both know about but no one else does. we never hide anything or lie to each other. as my wife also had anxiety problems a few years ago, but she went to the doctor and got some medication for this, and everything changed to the better. as she does not have this problem any longer. and everything is fine. so do not just think about going to the doctor, for help do it. but please understand, a couple has to be true toward each other for this to work. this means from both sides, you both should feel and act as one together to have true love and a true life together. as way of trust, respect, and honesty as to feel as one together. you should also explain this to him, as he must feel the same way toward you as you do toward him or it will not work. for he or you should not have any thing to keep or hide from the other, if so there may be something wrong. and it seems to me he does keep things from you and feels as if he is his own person. when he should always put you first as, you should always put him first above everything that life can throw at you. as I said, feel as if both of you together will become one. you should also try and explain this to him. you also said you do not want to text him so send your letter to him threw email or use snail mail, yet best if you can call him and talk to him on the phone. for in this way you will not only feel to be closer to him but he will be able to also answer you as both of you may be able to work this out. but please go to the doctor and get your medication as then tell him you are not that way any longer as this may help also. but do not give up if you do love him. I wish both of you the best in working this problem out. sorry' for the long answer.Big relationship problems with someone I really do love... please help!?
Don't give him this draft of the letter. You need to rewrite it so it's about 2/3 shorter. Leave out all mention of bad things he's done. Don't make this a tit-for-tat letter. Only talk about your remorse for what you did, exactly how you plan to improve your emotional outbursts, do not pinkie-promise anything. Be very adult and serious. And don't talk about him. Talk only about your issues and how you plan to deal with them in a concrete way.
thats a good letter you wrote. but what exactly did you forgive him on? and need to earn his trust back?
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